The clocks ticking....

Ya! Every passing second brings me closer to something and pulls me away from something else. With really very less time left for Campus placements and preparation still in the pre-development phase, all I can do now is to keep my fingers crossed. I dont know what lies ahead of me, I have no idea of what I am going to do whatever I have and what I had.

Done many courses, studied a lot, learnt a few things... where am I going to apply it? What is it that is awaiting for me in future? Should I prepare for interviews and go for a job? Should I pursue my interests and do something else? Should I give up to the society's yardstick of measuring someone's intelligence and capability with the pay packet he takes home every month? Should I go for a company that gives me the highest package or should I go for a company that gives an interesting job profile? Lots of questions... And the funniest part is I can't pose any of these to any of my friends here, because I know behind those happy, smiling, lazy, reclusive faces lie a plethora of doubts, anxieties and uncertainities about future. I am not the only person who is going through this vicious circle.

The main point is what is it that I was groomed for all these years? If it was these 20-25Kpm, then why did my dad send me all the way here when I could have earned the same or probably more in business assisting him? What do people expect from a person when he completes his education? A degree, responsibility, his pay packet or is it something else?

What is people's yardstick to measure someone's competence? If I am going to join a software firm and code in Java, C etc... what for have I learnt signals, switches, routers, balance sheets etc..? Can't we have a job which gives you scope to pursue all your knowledge and thinking?

What is a person being educated for? For a job that gives him 20-25kpm initially! Then why wasn't I taught C, Java etc.. in my childhood itself? that way, I could have earned a fortune by now... What is the use of all the other things that we have learnt? Not just other courses, but all the social, mental, physical and psychological education that we have recieved through means both conventional and unconventional.

What should a person aim for in life? People very easily say excellence. Perfect! Excellence at what? Earning huge 7-8 figure pay packets? Producing zero defect codes? What excellence are we exactly speaking of? If people pursue everything for money, why was I encouraged to dream? I should have been trained to chase whatever throws out the heaviest money. Where is innovation when you are being asked to follow stereotypes?

I know I will have to break through, but how?

n ya, the clock's ticking... Placements screeching closer! Gotta brush up some more cliched programming concepts.