Pain
When something happens to people who matter a lot to you, you lie shattered. So shattered that you cannot collect yourselves even after two full days, and everytime you pass by something related to the incident every unfortunate incident rolls down in front of your eyes and you drop into a deep depression.
A feeling of helplessness, a feeling so scary encompasses you that you are afraid of smiling too! You lose interest in everything, not that the unfortunate event is something very disastrous, but because you feel it could have been avoided by you, him or something divine. But then, things did go wrong and I am left with nothing else but pain now.
Though there are smiles that occur regularly, though life seems to be going on at its own pace, nothing is same. There is always a thread of pain running behind in the brain. The pain sometimes gets so unbearable that you feel like thrashing your roomie's computer screen because he shouts when you writhe in pain you dont show to anyone else. The pain is so excruciating that you do not dare to muster up enough courage to go see the victim because you know there is every chance you break down there, for the person is so dear. :(
The pain shoots up exponentially when you realise that this would have been those rare last days with the person for which you have made plans, all including the person with you. Had he been here, this would have been our plan. Huh! Both of us started working seriously the same time, we both completed things the sametime and planned to freak out the same way but now we can't and the fact that this is our last chance is the last straw to break the camel's back.
Though the fact is that the person would soon be normal, the fear and pain is that this soon would be too late considering the birds are ready to fly now. At a time when we planned to bid graceful and heartfelt adieu to each other, my friend, brother would be an understatement too, met with an accident and I am left shattered. Things will very soon be normal but still there is a lot of pain! :(
A feeling of helplessness, a feeling so scary encompasses you that you are afraid of smiling too! You lose interest in everything, not that the unfortunate event is something very disastrous, but because you feel it could have been avoided by you, him or something divine. But then, things did go wrong and I am left with nothing else but pain now.
Though there are smiles that occur regularly, though life seems to be going on at its own pace, nothing is same. There is always a thread of pain running behind in the brain. The pain sometimes gets so unbearable that you feel like thrashing your roomie's computer screen because he shouts when you writhe in pain you dont show to anyone else. The pain is so excruciating that you do not dare to muster up enough courage to go see the victim because you know there is every chance you break down there, for the person is so dear. :(
The pain shoots up exponentially when you realise that this would have been those rare last days with the person for which you have made plans, all including the person with you. Had he been here, this would have been our plan. Huh! Both of us started working seriously the same time, we both completed things the sametime and planned to freak out the same way but now we can't and the fact that this is our last chance is the last straw to break the camel's back.
Though the fact is that the person would soon be normal, the fear and pain is that this soon would be too late considering the birds are ready to fly now. At a time when we planned to bid graceful and heartfelt adieu to each other, my friend, brother would be an understatement too, met with an accident and I am left shattered. Things will very soon be normal but still there is a lot of pain! :(
posted by Naresh @ 10:44 PM
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10 Comments:
Well, no matter few days, he will back with a bang. It hurts when someone very close happened to meet such situations, i have spent 2 months with him, so was quite close.hope , everything become fine as soon as poosible.
Bad time
thanx naresh,...whats going on ur side..
This Article made me burst into tears once again! Thanks for being my beer buddy, close fren & many! Without u whom or why sud I watch the DC Vs MI match next sunday! I will still be waiting for u in Poona..the trip which u planned!!!
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I'm kinda confused... who posted this? Naresh or someone else talking about Naresh??
I am yet to recover. I'm in a shock. i have never met you or Spoken to you but I will miss you for the rest of my Life. :(
I never interacted a lot with Naresh, but I want to write a few words here -
Naresh was a wonderful manager; the best one I have worked for/with. He lead the project for SEN so well - playing the "first amongst equals" role, assigning work to folks that are hardly interested to deliver, preventing feeling of inequality and resentment build up. Naresh was an elegant taskmaster.
Here is an incident that I remember, this was couple of days after we watched Rang De Basanti. I was snacking near the DA-IICT food-courts in solitude when I overheard Naresh, who was discussing some things with some folks. Unfortunately I don't remember the full context or contents of that discussion - but Naresh said something that really made me think a bit. He talked about how movies like RDB aren't truly effective at making people act, and how they merely capitalize on the fact that "all of us want to feel patriotic". He did not even talk a lot about it, but simply made it look like a passing remark. And then he quickly changed gears and cracked a joke on Networking to lighten the mood. I am too emotional right now to do a good job at explaining how I felt about the way he presented that viewpoint.
Rest in Peace, my friend - you will be remembered. You were so alive, it's hard to believe that you are not.
Some words from this blog: When something happens to people who matter a lot to you, you lie shattered. So shattered that you cannot collect yourselves even after two full days,...
Naresh , this is what your family is currently going through. I wish the incident on Sunday - 24th April could be reverted by doing a Ctrl+Z
Naresh,
You have spelled out the pain someone goes through just at the thought that the person the care for, love may not be around.
Could you not take a few steps back to save your family and everyone who loved you infinite amount of pain.
Your parents just seem to exist without you, your siblings miss you every moment. Your friends miss the charmer,bugger Naresh.
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