Masquerade of Emotions

Disclaimer: Though the heading is a straight lift from STUD Steve's page, the content is n't. I used the heading bcos I feel it suits the content better.

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After all those meetings, designs, docs and phases later, SEN is finally done. The last week I was trying to subside a myriad emotions in myself. I felt many things about many people. Several days away from orkut had taken away from me whatever I called fun and I was left between long codes, longer reviews and longest docs!!! Then, there were elections. Actually, I don't like to write my life in my blog, only my feelings but here as my last week was so full of roller coaster of emotions and feelings, I am compelled to intersperse some narrations here and there. Pardon me for that!

Elections have proved again that no matter how talented people are in terms of studies, they are n't wise. It reinstated the fact that results dont guarantee wisdom. The sight of toppers and the so-called talented people of my batch askign for votes generated a deep sense of pity for them in the deepest lanes of my heart. Asking for votes in the sense of campaigning through your agenda is ok, but when such so-called great people stoop down to lower levels and cheaper tactics of politics and power play, I lose respect for them and I have lost it. Then again like Chitra in one of her poems wrote 'Left always has a Right'(read it here), there are also people who are the examples of talent and wisdom in excellent proportions. In such a category, I rate Pabari and Shalabh among the first. They are real talented people, but always have their feet on ground and head on their shoulders.

Then again coming back to elections, I hate the concept of vote banks in this third year of engineering. I hate it when people say I won only because there are many people from my region and regionalism won the game for me. Thats the reason I agreed when one of my friends also asked if he could also nominate. I wanted to see if people really trust me. The important point to note here is that I, at no instant, made him a scapegoat or anything like that. When he expressed his desire to contest alongside me, I just thought as above. Anyway, these elections are politics are shit better not written of. There are lots of misunderstandings that occur in such cases and a couple of them happened this time too, though very unfortunately.

Then, the last week saw the end of SEN project, which I think really was a source of value addition. I realised myself through SEN. I realised that people are tough things to manage and a team is always something you need to work for. I had excellent company there and to lead them was an icing on the cake. The project has no doubt enervated me, but it also satisfied me. It was a very good team-building exercise and ya, all this does not mean I am in love with the course nor do I like the prof. So guys plz don't bash me! All I said was it was nice working in that team and leading it.

Now that SEN is over and three weeks for exams left, life is expected to be busy and this is the time when emotions touch an all-time high. This is the toughest part of the semester and I expect to sail through it happily this time. Thats wishful thinking ofcourse!